Almost that time of the year, I just have on day to go.... And I will then be 18... I feel old. I miss my friends. I am gonna cry T.T

Well I made two new awesome friends here. Which reminds me I should look on one of their deviants xD

They are both awesome artists.

The best I have seen. And I am being super serious.

But any way.

-sigh-

It has almost been a year since my ex-friends declarition of her having no reason to be my friend.

Honestly... I have changed... Not because of not being friend with her... No just to fix my mistakes for god knows what happened.

I mean ya I do miss her a great deal, but as I was told by my father when he heard about all of it, her loss on a good friend.

I know I am a good person. And she atleast said I wasn't closed minded. Which is a plus when it comes to having some one say they don't want to be friends any more.

But the point it. Alot of maturing has happened. And even though I wish to tell her I am truly sorry for all the immature acts and such I have put her through, I also feel that I will miss her friendship but life goes on. I mean sure I was hysterical to a breaking point I was so upset. I kinda do get why she said what she said. But I feel that I have grown up. And if she would be my friends again that would be great. But I am no longer going to persue it. I mean I haven't for the past several months.... why on earth would I continue now...

I know many things she said was not true. I know that because I know I don't gossip... If some one asks me what is wrong ya I will tell them. That is if they know me well enough. But I don't bad talk about my friends behind their backs or at all. Infact my number one rule is 'Don't ever talk about friends behind their back. Especially if it is hurtful'

I know I was immature, but I went through a lot. I went through alot in the past year. And no I am not talking about heart break. That is different and both guys weren't worth it in the end. One was a lying sleeze and the other just a liar who did play with my heart... But that is all said and done. That isn't the point.

I mean ya my parents are split for good. My mom's boyfriend forced me outta the house... No say on my part what so ever... I was forced to leave NY and well things have been turning around from there.

I just really feel like I could just fix things that can't be fixed.


how the hell did I go from birthday annoucement to going on about a lost friend to troubles in my life ._.;;